Today I made a decision outside of myself. I set aside what I really PREFER, all my petty little internal things to set my eye on a BIG picture goal that's going to require me to do a new thing. I also silenced the opinions and thoughts of others because I see God aligning things up for me to have a bountiful harvest IN THE TIME of THE HARVEST! To reap, you must first Sow, water, and care for the seed planted. For me, and as I approach my birthday I embrace that This is MY season to plant and BE PLANTED; sometimes in foreign soil. I'm cool and in expectancy of all that this journey will reveal as I trust God to order my steps, provide for all my needs, and keep his promises for all that he has told me he would deliver. My spiritual GPS is on and I am moving with Gods instruction fully OK if he recommends a detour on the way to my final destination. I'm moving in silence and keeping my eye on the goal(s). Your Glory will say enough. Thank you God.
I am at a place in my life where I am ok being where I am. For anyone who know me this is not the norm. I obsess over becoming better than I was yesterday. Learning more than I know last year, and giving everything I am to one cause. Yet... I don't know what's started to happen to me. Maybe it comes with age, transition, discomfort, or clarity in my values, but the peace I feel when I am quiet, is so freeing now. Just still. No thought, no anger, no desire. Just quiet.
For in that quiet time, (which takes effort and concentration) I am able to hear my heart beat, my kids laughing, the wind blowing, acorns falling, gratitude intensifying and I feel blessed. Just to have a pulse, to have the experience of motherhood, to have all my god given senses is enough for me to be almost moved to tears because I don't deserve anything. I could be anyplace with unparalleled pain, hardship, pity and yet, I am NOT. I've always been appreciative and capable of demonstrating my best manners, but I don't fully believe that I was "thankful". I say this because as I begin to spend more time in prayer, meditation, deep thought, and reflection, I hear myself offering up a prayer of thanksgiving, but in the same breath, I ask for more. Sometimes, contradicting what I just proclaimed to be thankful for! Crazy I know, but it is my truth.
I am happy to be aware of and committed to change. This change is required of me to unfold and release all that is mine and predestined for me to experience and have. This doesn't mean that I will sit on my ass and pull petals off of a rose with hopes that I'll end on " He love me" or " I'll be rich", but it means that I won't use every moment on earth in movement, chasing, creating, working, planting. It means that I will be thankful for everything thing I have and can experience now, so that I allow good karma, good health, good relationship, good ideas, good opportunties to be attracted to me. Just where I am, with what I have, with what I am capable of RIGHT Now, I am blessed, on my way, and on track. I will just BE full of hope, joy, patience, love, forgiveness, gratitude, and hope that my mere presence is enough to yield my best life. These are the fruits of my spirit that will yield a great reward. I am fully capable of giving an abundance of them all just where I am on this day. Just Be.
It has often been said that time is the number one enemy of expectation. I know for me, waiting is like psychological death! But, because of my faith, I know that though it may tarry, we must wait patiently for it until it manifests. Easier said than done right? WRONG! Over the years, I have witnessed everything that I ever spoken and fully believed manifest in my life. Of course it never happened the way I thought it would, or at the time or season I most preferred. But, it always arrived, right on time, better than I envisioned and brought great rewards - even if the pain of waiting seemed endless.
So, I want to just use this platform to encourage you today and remind you to keep the course. Keep pushing and wait with thanksgiving in your heart. Gratefulness proves to be an accelerant for the things you are awaiting, and forces the universe to unleash all that is hidden from your physical eye. Don't allow your lack of patience to confuse you and get you off track! Don't allow time or the calendar to convince you to think that it's time for "Plan B". Plan A (with God at the center, worked with patience and a heart filled with thanks giving), will A-rrive, in A-bundance, Always!
How about we start a new movement and start wearing sweaters with the letter "A" on them again like in movie classics. But, let's give it new meaning and encourage those who think that time has robbed them! You are still on track. You are still capable. You still have time.
It is true. Time will NOT wait on us, but we surely can hop aboard the train and enjoy the ride. Take in the view of life as we travel on bumpy roads, and take our mind off of the time it took to arrive at the destination we most desire.
Cheers & Smiles!